Back and forth

I look at myself and wonder how I change

As my thoughts mutate in a wide range.

Sometimes I am so selfishly me, mine

Sometimes I forget the alphabet I and its sign.

There is turbulence and peace  

Alternating as an increase or decrease.

When it should be a Yes

No always indifferently messes.

When I think its wrong

Right surfaces and strikes the gong.

I forward with strength that world admires

I then step down fearing the burning pyres. 

Practicing and preaching moral values 

I ofttimes remain oblivious of my own views.

With others I am rude and arrogant 

But sometimes I be so softly pleasant.

I hate and disgrace a person at moments
But soon I find my love overflowing at events.


What I feel and think, I can't express

In solitude words combine as in press.

There are things I keep locked up as secrets
But then I myself open up all the closets. 


The child in me jumps up with ignorance

But then my intelligent adulthood maintains the stance. 

My goals change and vary with time

I just wish I attain the crucial, best and prime. 

I muse how I manage to sit on this swing

And get this genre of rhyme whenever I sing.

As my heart oscillates in this way so strange

I look at myself and wonder how I change.